Saturday, November 6, 2010

Surviving Disappointment



A few weeks ago I suffered what I'll call a bump in the road that has left my heart bruised and has led to more more tears then I want falling from these eyes.

They say what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. Personally I think that is a bit dramatic, but then again, sometimes so am I. I'm definitely not dead, but right now I do NOT feel stronger. It's probably one of those things that down the road I'll see the purpose and be grateful for this growing pain. I'm not looking for compliments or sympathy. I'm trying to find some of that purpose sooner rather than later.

So how do you "survive" when you are handed a big dose of disappointment?

1.) You pound the conga's with your dad before heading to work in the morning.

2.) You go to that "dumb dance where they are encouraging dates" with a date, you dress up, you dance like crazy, and you have a good time!


3.) You teach Sunday School with your glasses on even when you've been crying all morning long and can't wear your contacts because your eyes hurt.

4.) You graciously accept flowers from your best girl friends who know the condition of your heart, and you laugh when the vase says "Prescription- Get Well Soon" and all your co-workers wonder what in the world happened to you.


5.) You tell angry thoughts towards the one who squished your heart they are not invited and give no room for them.

6.) You go kick a soccer ball!

7.) You become the crying shoulder for a patient who is having a hard day, because you understand how good a crying shoulder feels.

8.) You try to enjoy the bizarre dreams your subconscious throws at you instead of being shaken by them!

9.) You go eat at Pappasito's just for that delicious ice cream dessert with a friend visiting from out of town.

10.) You find ways to serve, and serve, and serve.

11.) You watch several conference talks and remember what the real purpose of life is.

12.) You go to a few Les Mills classes at the gym, "Because we need more hard core!" You can't feel sad when your shoulders are burning after the Body Pump shoulder track!

13.) You learn to ignore all the voices of the world and try to figure out how to keep on loving that person because that's the only way to heal-LOVE! You remember that you were a friend and still are a friend.

14.) You go apartment hunting and make grand plans!

15.) You remember that even though it might not feel that way, you KNOW that life is ABSOLUTELY BRILLIANT and you have to keep moving forward, relying upon they One who will heal this disappointment. You keep hope alive!

3 comments:

Elizabeth said...

I love you Tamara! You are one of my heroes of faith. And I'm not just saying that. It's true!

Shelly said...

You are a wonderfully wise woman!! Love your Pumpkin! Life is Absolutely Brilliant and so are you!

Unknown said...

And you learn the tumbao rhythm on the congas

1 - 2 - 3 - 4 - (count)
H T S T H T O O (conga)
L L R L L L R R (hand)

Works every time!

te amo querida,

Pai